yang sayang bang

well...
i tink its the moment where ive made my decision...
my head is straight n my thoughts r clear...
im not gona look back anymore..
yeah ppl come n go...
but i think he is here 2 stay..
perhaps i shud jus embrace him now..
i m falling 4 him...
n im falling head over heels 4 him...
i seriously didnt expect anythin frm this relationship...
but my oh my...
he makes me melt even with the smallest thing he does...
perhaps its bcoz ive known him 4 so long n i noe wat kinda person he is...
i mean...
he doesnt intend 2 do it jus 2 impress...
he does sincerely..
its jus me...
being 2 observant..
i notice all those changes in him...
he notices those changes in me 2....
n he loves it s muc s i love those changes in him...
it mite not have worked b4...
but now...
he is so eager 2 make it work..
he is so modest 2wards us...
v didnt couple at 1st bcoz him especially was so afraid tat it doesnt work again...
he was so afraid 2 hurt me again...
n s time went by...
v bcame similar 2 a couple...
everything was couple-ish...
except d fact tat v werent...
so v tot...
perhaps v shud jus stay tiz way...
no 1 knew bout us...
v nvr talk bout it 2 any1...
ok i dnt noe on his side la...
but i didnt tell any1...
sumhow..
along the line...
v bcame couples...
ok u noe wat...
wen he proposed 2 me...
i was blushing like toot....
i dnt noe y...
ya i noe its impossible 2 c n indian blush...
but i cudnt help it...
i was smiling x tentu pasal...
n i was speechless...
i ran out of words...
all i cud say is...
stop making me blush!
i 4got how 2 say yesh...
1 4got how 2 say no...
i didnt even noe wat 2 say 4 tat matter..
yup...
pretty awkward 4 my character ain't it?
i wasnt thinkin...
perhaps i didnt wanna think anymore...
s i said yesh...
there was tiz side of me telling me 2 say no...
its not meant 2 b...
jus then i realised..
tat tat was d voice of my past...
the voice tat is hurt...
the voice tat nvr let me moved on..
tat kept me holdin back myself frm gettin hurt again..
jus about time...
my couragous present self...
the part of me tat ive been nurturing since i was hurt...
the part tat ive accumulated each day...
with courage n hope n boldness...
the part tat i tot wud soon conquer tat hurt part of me sumhow soon...
tat part told me...
hey..
its time 2 move on...
n here's an open door...

s i entered tat door...
i kept tat door open...
i didnt close it..
jus so i change my mind...
or things doesnt work out again..
but now im writing tiz...
jus 2 let evry1 noe...
jus 2 let myself noe...
tat ive closed tat door...
coz baby...
just like u..
im here 2 stay 2...
i love u...
n im ready 2 4get the past n move on...
i dnt care wat happens 2 us in the future...
i dnt care wat happens 2mrw...
i dnt even 1 2 think about it...
wat happens...
let it be...
i jus wanna embrace the present...
coz u make me happy in a way tat oni i feel it...
u make me sad n its gone everytime u talk 2 me...
bcoz its jus me...
i get hurt easily...
perhaps tat wat i love...
u noe my weakness..
n u nvr cease to protect tat...
our relationship is not perfect...
no relationship can eva b...
but sumhow...
u make those flaws in our relationship like flowers...
i m happy 4 d way v r just like u r...
u love evry flaw bout me...
4 u...
they arent flaws..
they r perfection...
yang...
i may not b able 2 express myself tat muc...
my heart mite not b completely urs yet...
but bang...
bagi la aku masa...
aku baru dah nak sampai ke permukaan dugaanku
yang sebelum ini aku hampir mati tenggelam..
baby...
i jus wanna say tat...
u may not b the guy ive always dreamt of...
but i love u 4 d man u r 2day...
4 every small thing bout u...
4 every big thing bout u...
im happy i said yesh.